A Beautiful Day in April

I went to pick up my best friend on April 18, 2001. It was supposed to be an ordinary run of the mill kind of day. We were going to the Farmers Market, to the movies, and just to hang out. She called me and asked if we could also pick up her boyfriend to spend the day. I said sure. We go and pick him up and he asked me if it was all right to pick up his nephew. I said, "sure, why not make this a better day?" Little did I know. We pulled up to his apartment complex and he came out of the door. I saw the handsomest angel sent from God Himself. He came down and got in the car. I was driving, and every now and then, I would look in the rear view mirror and I saw him looking at me. He made me feel kind of nervous at first, but as the day went on, I kind of relaxed. We drove up to this point where if you stand on the hill, you can see forever. My friend and her man went down the hill, and his nephew followed them down. My best friend told him to go back up the hill and come and talk to me. He was nervous, because he said "I don't know what to talk about." She said, "say whatever comes into your mind." I can remember the first question I ever asked him. "When's your birthday?" (I had to break the ice somehow.) Our birthdays are 5 yrs. and 10 days apart, which makes us the same sign. Scorpio. He started to talk about the bees, the plants, and the birds. He calls me his "Nature Girl", because that's where we met, in the middle of nature. We talked for hours on end, until the sun was practically setting. We exchanged numbers, and he called me exactly 20 minutes later. (that's how long it took me to get home after dropping everybody off). We talked almost all night long, and before the conversation was over, he told me that he loved me, and I told him I felt the same way. Needless to say, that was the beginning of our forever. We have been together now for 2 years, 5 months, and 9 days. We are getting married in November of 2002. Baby, I love you, and I am so happy that we came to pick you up on that beautiful day in April.








It must be love

Three years ago a girl came to my church with one of my friends. She was kinda short and was very cute. I had always been bigger than everyone my age and didnt really pay much attention to her. I am fifteen now, and that girl is the first person that i have ever really fell in love with. I played football my freshman year of high school, and at one of the varsity games i saw her. She was...well,.. all grown up if you know wut i mean. I had just broke up with my girlfriend and was single again. I started to talk to her and found out that she had a boyfriend on the football team, which really got my hopes up. So all we did was talk and catch up on things. I left that night thinkin that i was never going to see her again. Well, the next friday night i saw her at another game. Right when i walked in the gate she gave me a huge hug. I was overwhelmed. I didnt know wut to say, so i just said hey and walked away. I was standing with my friends when she walked over to me and asked me if she could sit down with me because she was tired of her friends. I said sure. So we talked all night long. Finally she asked me if i liked her. I didnt know wut to say. I thaught that she might say, "well, i have a boyfriend and i am not interested." but i told her ya, anyways. She told me that she liked me too and that she wanted to break up with her boyfriend. I was so happy. We left the ball feild that night and i didnt even get her number or anything. A couple of weeks later i overheard her boyfriends little brother saying that his brother and girlfriend broke up. So i asked him if he new her number, and he said no. But there was another guy that heard me say that and he said that he new her email adrress. So i went home and emailed her and asked how things where going. She emailed me back the next day and gave me her number. We talked for a couple of weeks and then i asked her out and she said yes. We have been dating for 8 months. I have had more fun with her than i could have ever imagined. She is absolutely perfect for me.





WHERE IS THE LOVE
Imagine for a second that a young couple so deep in love that they can't see beyond each other's eyes, plan out not only a pending wedding but as well what will be a blueprint for the rest of their lives together.

Next imagine that for one night all is forgotten. It's funny how your world can turn upside down in an instant either for good or the bad. The ironic thing is that she wound up doing both to me. Now I have some simple philosophies about relationships and one of them just seems to be about trust.

"I will always trust you until you give me a reason not to." She said that there was going to be a girl's nite out at a local club and I told her I was fine with it because she needed it (We were both going through some stress at the time). After finding out that she had already decided not to come back till around 3 in the morning, I decided to make plans for myself so as I wouldn't be left alone all night. I went to the other side of town to hang out with my best friend whom I haven't seen for a long while. I planned everything out perfectly so that I would be at home right around 3 about the same time as her. Well as the night progressed I was starting to get a little dependant on her call. I was waiting to hear how here night was going or for her to as how my night was going...... no call at all.

Right around 2 I decided to call her it was no surprise that she was totally wasted but thanks to her friend from work she was able to get home safely. I rushed to get back home but was only able to make it by 3 like I had intended. As I entered our apartment I found her boots lying in the living room and also found her sound asleep in the room. Now here is the part where I do admit that I could be wrong. As I was setting up to go to sleep as well, I checked her phone and her text messages only to find that she had sent various messages to someone named Anna. By my own knowledge Anna is a female name but these messages weren't made out on that fact. It seemed that she was sending messages to someone named Ricky which I can only think was her ex-boyfriend before I came along a year ago. You also have to keep in mind, that was the last piece of the puzzle that confirmed my suspicions. On earlier occasions she would step out of a room to make a call, became very private about the things she did when I wasn't around, and to top it all off was acting very separated towards me. I think that if it looks like shit, smells like shit, then 10 times out of 10 it is shit. My only assumption was that she is cheating on me. Now here I am, the following day pouring my heart out to anyone that will listen. Everything I have in life is in her. My family is in another state, we've invested so much into each other, and basically outside of this I have nothing. Just in case your wondering if i'm making myself look like a saint, i'm gonna give you some quick details about myself. I'm not a drinker, or a smoker. I'm from what people tell me funny, caring, and at sometimes out going. I have never done anything to harm her and have treated her like a queen. I guess I am a saint after all.

any advice?

I guess with everything in life we are just going to wait and see the outcome. I really appreciate you taking the time to read my story.